Hate me? Great, I must be doing something right.

So,
I was just sitting here in my office thinking to my self. I am 30 years old and I have not made a name for myself in History. Growing up I never ever felt normal, I just knew that I will do something remarkable to be known world wide. I wasn't the cutest girl in school with the big boobs, big butt, long hair and when I was coming up everyone wanted a yellow bone. So I saw myself the way others "I thought" saw me. I was quite and to myself. Through life I just didn't fit in anywhere not just at school but everywhere (mall, collage, church, etc.). I had a hard time making friends and keeping them. Relationships would start off great then next thing I know, I wasn't liked by her anymore. So this type of thing just kept happening, so I ask God in a journal to him, why don't no one like me. Its easy for me to Love people, to encourage people, but I don't get it back at me. Lord What is up?
I know in your word you said "They will hate you, like they hated me".
I still didn't listen. So I continue to email, text, etc, email, text, email, text, email,,,,,,,, until I literally drove myself crazy. I stop being able to sleep, my mind wouldn't stop, I was yelling, I hated myself, I started doing things I shouldn't been doing, I used to ask my husband , "Baby what did I do to these crazy, low self-esteem, back stabbing woman, that they don't like me!"
My husband would say "Baby, you know you don't be doing anything, you don't hangout with people to gossip, you are nice, you pray for them, you bend over backward just to give a compliment, and you actually are genuine. If they don't like you then they are missing out, you have 2 sons, 1 on the way, and Me, what else do you need". Still
I didn't listen to him. I was messing up my marriage. I was so bitter inside, The people that I thought I could trust and I'm talking about older people that you think would be done with all the silly games, Started showing there true colors. So now I am mad because these woman that calls there selves "Christians", go behind my back and talk. And How do I know, Because I am chosen and God tells me stuff that I try not to hear and have closed my ears to all my life.
So I'm in my car and I HAVE A BREAKDOWN, I yell "LORD WHY ME". He says to me. "Because I love you and have so much in store for you, I cant keep people around you that will stop my plans I have for you. I am tired of people being Religious and trying to Pimp me. They call me when they need me, then when I answer they go right back. I want allow you to fail me. Once I put you on, there will be no turning back. You been hurt, you been lied on, you been betrayed, and you are broken right now. But all of this is for my Glory. I want you to be so fed up that you want take no more of the enemy mess. You win! He lose. R U READY?" and I said "Yes".
Its my time, God has humbled me,  So now I am on the road to Glory  and I aint letting no Judas in hell Stop me. You can love me or move around, but I am finally going to be who God has called me to be. I realize that if someone is liked by everyone then something is just not right.

Matthew 10:22 "You will be hated by everyone because of me, but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved."

AND THATS WHAT JESUS SAID HIMSELF!!!!

"LAWYER" STATUS MEAL WITH A $25 BUDGET

BRRRRRRRRRR....... ITS COLD OUT SIDE. Well at least that's what my cousin in pre-law text me this morning. His exact Text was "{We are going to get snowed/iced in. I NEED TO KNOW HOW TO MAKE GUMBO}". So here we go Jamaal, I am finally releasing my recipe for my Famous "Its cold out there but Hot in here" Gumbo. First you will need to make sure you have the basic seasoning that every household should have off the back, so there is no purchase required.

This should make a 12 bowl serving( should last You 3 days, however I'm not big on eating the same thing twice lol, it gets me the chance to cook again)

Pantry Seasoning (no purchase hopefully)

1 teaspoon of Accent (Flavor enhancer )

4 tablespoons of Lawry's Seasoning Salt (its the best, but use whatever brand you chose)

1 teaspoons of salt

3 tablespoons of Pepper ( Yes pepper jamaal lol)

2 teaspoons of Cayenne pepper

1 teaspoons of Garlic salt

2 teaspoons of onion powder

2 tablespoons of Smoked Paprika

(If you want to go ahead and mix all seasoning together , go right ahead)

Here's a short cut only for those on the go folks. Just pick up a rotisserie chicken from your favorite neighborhood grocery store already prepared and shred it to pieces.

Things you will need from the store.

1 Shredded Chicken (cooked) $6

13oz Smoked Beef sausage or Turkey (Say No to Pork) $2.30

1 package of previously frozen or 1 lb of fresh Cod (which ever you prefer, frozen is but cost more) $ 7

Diced Slamon (for seafood taste, located in seafood market) $7

.5 small package Frozen sliced Okra (rather you like it or not its what makes the gumbo, you want taste)$1

1 chopped small Fresh Onion (just suck it up and chop, its better then frozen but its up to you) .85

2 Jalapeno pepper (or 1) $.15

1 Green Bell pepper chopped $.99

2 Chicken Broth Box's or 4 Can of chicken stock $5

1 cup of Water

2 8 oz cans of Sweet Corn $3
1 Box of Zatarains Gumbo Base (don't accidentally get Gumbo Mix) $1.39

Okay First, slice the smoked sausage into small circle pieces and brown in skillet. Remove Sausage from skillet. In the same skillet put onions and bell peppers, the natural grease from the sausage should be enough to cook semi-caramelize the onion and pepper. Remove the onion and pepper form skillet and place in a stock pot on medium heat (pot big enough to put all ingredients inside). Clean the Skillet and clean all areas that was messed up (You will thank me later) :-). 

Now in the pot you put the onion mixture in add the chicken, sausage, seasoning mix, okra, jalapenos, corn. Now add the chicken broth, water, and Zaterains gumbo mix. Now allow to Cook for 1 to 2 hours on low-med, stirring often. 20 min before you complete cooking add cod and salmon (I hate for shrimp to be over cooked). Add seasoning if needed (I suggest season salt because salt tends to be to salty)

You Chose

I was wondering how powerful a choice is. Do you know? Well I come to realize that its on the top of the most important things in life. Your choice determines everything. It is the gasoline to every decision you make. Every emotion you have. Every place you go. Who you chose to love. What you eat or drink. It is also the beginning and the end of your destination, while your alive and after you leave this earth.
Alot of people have high blood pressure. I am one to believe that it started with a choice. Why ever the condition begun, its because of what you decided to do, From eating a slice of cake everyday to deciding to allow that man work your nerve.
Lets step back a bit, What do I mean about the beginning and the end of your destination. Well, Sin and Truth starts with a choice. You make a choice
to sin, or you make a choice to live in the truth(God Will). Rather you chose a sinful life style that leads you to hell or a Godly life style that leads you to Heaven, it is all a choice.
So the advice I have for you is, make the choice that will benefit you and not the enemy.
Love............

EXPOSE I SUPPOSE: DRUGS=EVIL SPIRITS=DEMONS=THE DEVIL

EXPOSE I SUPPOSE: DRUGS=EVIL SPIRITS=DEMONS=THE DEVIL: MY HUSBAND AND I WAS WATCHING A INTERVIEW ON FOX 4 ABOUT A YOUNG MAN THAT SAY HE MURDERED A MAN THE OTHER NIGHT WHILE INTOXICATED. THE PROBL...

DRUGS=EVIL SPIRITS=DEMONS=THE DEVIL

MY HUSBAND AND I WAS WATCHING A INTERVIEW ON FOX 4 ABOUT A YOUNG MAN THAT SAY HE MURDERED A MAN THE OTHER NIGHT WHILE INTOXICATED. THE PROBLEM WITH THIS THING IS FOUR THINGS. 1. A MAN WAS MURDERED 2. THERE IS A MAN THAT SAYS HE MURDERED A MAN 3. HE WAS INTOXICATED 4. THE INTERVIEW.
1. A MAN WAS TAKING AWAY FROM HIS FAMILY, AND FRIENDS. THIS IS VERY SAD BECAUSE HE WAS LOVED BY SOMEONE, AND SOMEONE WILL NOT BE ABLE TO SPEAK TO THIS MAN AGAIN. SO I SAY CHERISH EVERY MOMENT GOD GIVES YOU WITH OTHERS.

2. THERE IS A MAN THAT MURDERED THIS MAN, NOT JUST A MAN THAT SAYS IM DID IT. BUT A MAN THAT IS SORROWFULL. HE DIDNT KNOW WHAT HE WAS DOING WHEN HE DID IT. SO NOW THIS YOUNG MAN HAS THIS GULIT TO LIVE WITH FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE. ANOTHER SAD THING ABOUT THIS YOUNG MAN IS THAT, IN DONT THINK HE BELIVE THAT GOD WILL FORGIVE HIM AND THAT GOD LOVES HIM DESPITE HIS SIN.

3. DRUGS = DEMON. HE HAD A EVIL SPIRIT THAT HE ALLOWED TO TAKE OVER HIS BODY BECAUSE HE MAD THE STUPID DECISION TO SMOKE. BY THIS YOUNG MAN JUST WANTED A HIGH, HE ALLOWED A DEMON THE DEVIL TO KILL, STEAL, AND DESTROY. THE WEED HE SMOKED WAS LACED WITH PCP, AND CAUSED HIM TO ACT IN WAYS HE DIDNT KNOW HE WAS CAPABLE OF ACTING LIKE. BECAUSE HE SAID YES TO THE DEVIL BY SMOKING WEED, HE SAID YES, DO ME DEVIL. USE ME DEVIL. AND HE ENDED UP KILLING A MAN. THE DEVIL ENTERED INTO THIS YOUNG MAN SOUL AND TOOK OVER AND DO WHAT HE DOES BEST. STEAL, KILL, AND DESTROY. HE DIDNT KNOW HE WAS CAPABLE OF KILLING SOMEONE, BUT WHEN YOU NOT LIVING FOR GOD, YOUR CAPABLE OF DOING WHATEVER THE DEVIL WANT YOU TO DO. IF YOU SAY NO TO GOD AND YES TO SIN, YOU SAY YES TO KILLING, STEALING, MURDER, LYING, RAPEING, HATEING, ADULTURY, IDOLATRY, AND SO MUCH MORE. THIS YOUNG MAN DID NOT KNOW THAT HE WOULD BE BEHIND BARS RIGHT NOW. BUT THE DEVIL DID NO THAT IF HE KEEP ON DOING WHAT I WANT HIM TO DO , THAT I CAN GET HIM SO HIGH THAT I CAN CAUSE HIM TO DO WHAT EVER I COMMAND.

4. THE INTERVIEW WAS SO SO UGH!!! THAT ALLI COULD DO WAS SAY "GET BEHIND ME SATAN" NOT BECAUSE OF THE BOY WHO KILLED THE MAN BUT BECAUSE OF THE PERSON THAT WAS INTERVIEWING THE GUY WHO SAID HE KILLED A GUY. THE NEWS CASTER KEPT ON TRYING TO MAKE THIS MAN FEEL LIKE HE WAS THE DEVIL RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM. THIS BOY KEPT SAYING HE SORRY, HE DIDNT KNOW, HE SOULD BE DEAD HIMSELF, FORGIVE ME, IM SORRY, I FEEL BAD OVER AND OVER AGAIN. AND THIS NEWS REPORTER WANTED THIS GUY TO KILL HIMSELF OR HIM RIGHT THERE ON TV. HE WANTED HIM TO FEEL LIKE THERE IS NO GOD THAT CAN FORGIVE THIS BOY FOR HIS SIN. HE ACTED LIKE HE NEVER SINNED IN HIS ENTIRE LIFE. HE ACTED AS IF HE DID THE ONLY SIN IN THE WORLD THAT WILL SEND YOU TO HELL AS IF BEING A LIAR, DRUNKEN, HATER, OR ETC, WILL NOT SEND YOU TO HELL. THIS INTERVIEW GUY WAS FACING HELL MORE THAN THAT BOY.

WE HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT EVEN THOUGH WE SIN THAT GOD STILLS FORGIVE, IT YOU REPENT(WHICH MEANS TURN AWAY FROM THAT SIN) AND ACCEPT GOD AS RULER OVER OUR LIVES THAT WE CAN BE FORGIVING. ONLY BECAUSE A PERSON SIN DOESNT MEAN WE SHOULDNT LOVE THAT PERSON ANYMORE. I REALLY WISHED THAT THEY WOULD OF HAD A CHRISTIAN INTERVIEW THAT GUY, BUT THIS MEDIA WORLD IS SO CURRUPT THAT THEY DONT WANT ANYONE TO KNOW THE TRUTH(GOD). BECAUSE THEY KNOW THE TRUTH. IN GODS WORD HE SAID THAT EVEN THE DEMONS KNOW THAT I AM GOD.......SO I ASK THAT WE PRAY THAT THIS BOY GET TO KNOW GOD BEFORE HE LEAVES THIS EARTH AND THE REPORTER WILL ASWELL AND LEARN TO APPROACH EVERY SITUATION WITH LOVE........

ITS A BIRD, ITS A PLANE, NO ITS WISDOM WOMAN

As i sit up in my bed, in my room alone, hearing my kids and husband play in the livingroom. I start to think, Man God is really smiling on me. Despite the road i went on in my past, which was my choice. God has still found himself saying "THAT IS MY CHILD, AND I WANT THE BEST". I have a awesome Father, well Eartly father i am talking about. That absoulutly love me. I have a awesome wise Mother that love me. God chose me to have great godly parents, all my life and i thank him for that. On top of that, he blessed me with a husband that puts marriage on a totally different level. I never knew a person could love like my husband loves me. Despite, the decisions i chose in life God still saw fit to chose me. I will never be ungratfull for my lovely life and I will never go without giving my God the praise, because if it wasnt for him, I would be dead somewhere, or maybe running after some man that dont no the vaule of a woman. Thank God for wisdom. If I could have any power in the world, I would ssdk God for Wisdom. Because With wisdom, i can get through anything......

PRAYER TIME!!!!!!!!!

WARNING, WARNING, WARNING!!!!!! HELL IS RIGHT HERE ON THIS EARTH. THE DEVIL IS RUNNING RAPID. HE IS JUMPING FROM LOST SOUL TO LOST SOUL. A 17 YR OLD BOY JUST HAD AN EXPERIENCE OF THE DEVIL HIMSELF TELLING HIS SON (THE 17 YR OLD) TO KILL HIS MOTHER AND SISTER, THEN CALL THE POLICE. THAT DEVIL JUST TOOK 3 LIVES FROM THIS EARTH. 2 LIFES STOP LIVING AND NEXT CALL WILL BE FROM GOD HIMSELF. AND THE 3RD LIFE FROM A 17 YR OLD WITH A WANDERING SOUL, THAT IS STILL LIVING IN THIS PHASE BUT DEAD IN A SPIRITUAL PHASE.....SAINTS, IT IS TIME TO PRAY. IF THE STORY OF THAT 17 YR OLD BOY DIDN'T MAKE YOU STOP AND PRAY THEN, CHECK YOURSELF. ITS TIME TO PRAY. PEOPLE ARE DYING... MY PRAYER FOR THAT BOY IS THAT HE FINDS JESUS, GETS SAVED AND ABLE TO GO TO HEAVEN WHEN JESUS COMES BACK. I HAVE NO PRAYER FOR THE TWO DEAD VICTIMS, BECAUSE ITS OVER. THE NEXT THING IS JUDGEMENT DAY. BUT I DID PRAY FOR THEM LAST NIGHT AND THE NIGHT BEFORE, WHEN I PRAYED FOR EVERYONE ON THIS EARTH. IF THEY DID KNOW CHRIST, I PRAYED THERE STRENGHT IN THE LORD, BUT IF THEY DIDN'T AT THAT TIME. I PRAYED THAT GOD WOULDN'T ALLOW THEM TO SLEEP, UNTIL THEY WAKE UP AND CALL THEM GOD ON THIS EARTH, RATHER THEN WAKING UP ON THERE WAY TO HELL....HELL AND THE DEVIL IS REAL. EITHER YOU WILL SPEND ETERNITY IN HELL WITH YOUR DADDY THE DEVIL OR HEAVEN WITH OUT FATHER GOD. ...GET DOWN ON YOUR KNEES SAINTS AND PRAY PRAY PRAY, AND TO THE SINNER GET ON YOUR KNEES AND REPENT, TURN AND FOLLOW CHRIST....I THE WORLD REJECT, PRAY YOUR STRENGHT IN THE LORD. GOD BLESS